Two days after her divorce was finalized, we’re finally learning – from Elin Nordegren directly – what happened toward the end of her marriage to Tiger Woods.

During an exclusive interview with People magazine, the 30-year-old mother of two set out to address several topics – including the rumors surrounding Tiger’s car accident and her knowledge of his affairs.

Although numerous women have linked themselves publicly with the golfer, his now ex-wife says she never had a clue. “I’m so embarrassed that I never suspected — not a one,” Elin admits. “For the past 3½ years, when all this was going on, I was home a lot more with pregnancies, then the children and my school.”

And while it would be understandable for her to fly into a rage upon making that discovery, Nordegren claims she never hit her husband on that Thanksgiving night last year. “There was never any violence inside or outside our home,” she insists. “The speculation that I would have used a golf club to hit him is just truly ridiculous.”

Despite the embarrassment, Elin says she did try to stay in the marriage – unfortunately, a lack of “trust and love” make the reconciliation impossible.

And though she grieves for the “loss of the family” she “so badly wanted” for her children, Nordegren knows she will eventually come out okay. “It’s hard to think you have this life, and then all of a sudden — was it a lie? You’re struggling because it wasn’t real. But I survived. It was hard, but it didn’t kill me.”

In the meantime, the Swedish beauty – who has “not watched one minute of golf” during this ordeal - plans to stay in Florida where the kids will be close to their father.

You can read Elin’s first and only interview in People this Friday.