Mel Gibson told Oksana Grigorieva he is “a f**king failure.”

According to TMZ.com, the actor - who has been accused of domestic violence against Oksana, the mother of his 11-month-old daughter Lucia - emailed his former partner to apologize for his behavior towards her. The morning after he allegedly attacked the 40-year- old Russian singer on January 6, 2010, damaging one of her teeth, Mel sent Oksana a message asking “How’s your tooth?”, followed by a second email an hour later stating, “I want to tell you how uspeakably sorry I am. (sic)”

In another email sent from the actor’s iPhone on March 2, he wrote, “I really am losing my grip. I desperately need a solution. Sorry it has to affect you. I can’t stand anything any more… I’m stuck. I try to be ok but it overpowers me & i’m something I don’t want to be. It’s a primal scream thing. The pain is too great & everywhere I turn is making it heavier. Oh to have peace! Oh to have joy. Oh to be able to provide it for another. I’m a f**king failure. (sic)”

Mel - who has accused his former lover of trying to extort money from him - admitted in another email on March 7, he was terrified of his “outbursts.”

“I love you… I was terrified of where we were going & my outbursts & the potential for damage. I felt a high degree of agitation in you when u left tonight. I’m sorry.  I guess I’m in a process of being torn down so I can rebuild,” the 54-year-old star said.