During sit-down interviews with both VH1 and ABC, singer Fantasia Barrino admitted her overdose earlier this month was no accident.

“I knew exactly what I was doing. You can’t accidentally take a whole bottle of pills,” she stated.

So what would lead the 26-year-old with a reality show and a new CD to make such a drastic decision? According to singer, her relationship with a still-married Antwaun Cook was just one of several issues in her life.

“I think everybody feels like I tried to harm myself over a man, but you know I’ve been in a lot of bad relationships,” she told GMA‘s Robin Roberts. “I think that had somewhat to do with it because it was so heavy, it was brand new information, I was already going through so much. But I think it was just six years of everything, of me holding all that stuff on the inside and not letting it out … and I just got very, very tired.”

Now, thanks to a new life coach and support team, Fantasia feels she’s ready to go back to work.

Back to Me, Barrino’s third studio album, hit stores on Tuesday.