I’m not sure if it’s possible to make a film that has elements of Borat, Crazy Heart

Making the Band—but director Casey Affleck may have done that here.

In this “documentary” titled I’m Still Here: The Lost Years of Joaquin Phoenix, we get an inside look at the subject’s most drastic transformation since changing his name from Leaf Phoenix. But is it all for real? And do we really care what Joaquin has supposedly become?

Those unable to turn away from this train wreck can watch more if it when I’m Still Here debuts September 10.