Kendra Wilkinson might not have wanted a sex tape of her being released, but the topic is at least giving her something to

talk about on her reality show and in her new book.

On the upcoming season finale of Kendra, the wife and mother talks about the video she made with an ex-boyfriend when she was 18 years old. (That tape, released yesterday, became the biggest pre-seller in Vivid Entertainment’s history.)

“It bothers me because people are going to judge me and stuff,” the 24-year-old says in the May 31 episode. “I just hope to God nobody looks at me like a porn star or something. I just hope they don’t press play. I mean, that was me, but that’s not me now.”

So how does hubby Hank Baskett feel about the the video’s release? “He’s doing a good job because he’s understanding,” she explains. “He’s like, ‘Kendra, we just have to hold our heads high because, yeah, we’re going to get attacked, but we can’t run.’”

And seriously, Kendra—we all know you were one of Hugh Hefner’s girlfriends. I doubt this tape would really change anyone’s current view of you.